I wander because…

In continuation to my last post –

https://thepalettedelights.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/i-wander-why/

 

My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

 

In the midst of daily chores, endless targets, perplexed musings running across my mind I try to creep in to the silence of my own being to solve my restlessness. There is something beyond my accessible terrains, where I can expand my awareness, where I can be free, where I am not lost. I feel that sometimes there is a need to travel within to know, understand and realise that indistinct vacuity of your own space; something which is hiding in you, something real, unknown but again not less than ordinary. And for that, it is required to wither away from the constant clamour of the surroundings and dig into your core. But! Can you find it? Can you extract it out? Can you liberate it? No! There lies a problem.

 

We as individuals are so absorbed in this eternal, external and incognito noise, that we are unable to stand still in our mind, heart and soul to relax and stay calm. There is so much happening around us. The influx of over flowing information is so much that a human mind is truly unable to handle it, process it and obviously implement it. We are chasing a never ending race in this maddening crowd. We are not sure about the purpose but since we don’t want to ‘miss out’ anything, no matter how relevant or irrelevant the issues are, we are sub consciously forcing ourselves to be in the game.

 

The world is bombarded with new avenues, new opportunities and new possibilities, that we are in the tendency to grab everything into us. Be it Smartphone explosions, social media platforms or rapid globalisation, everything has so much to offer, that by end of the day our brains are so drained to go beyond what is ‘visible’. Everything seems to be artificial, though technology bridges gaps between relations; we are constantly missing a ‘personal touch’. And there I am able to identify the issues what I am going through.

 

The world is moving so fast, everyone including me is mesmerised with the process and somewhere down the line we have forgotten to pause and live in the moment. It has been written many times, but what I am feeling that in this due course, I am losing myself to the world. I am so engulfed with everything around me; that I have elapsed to discover new paths for my journey. Everything looks so fake, unreal and insane. I miss those real conversations, those real relations and those real feelings.  I miss that touch! I miss that heart-to-heart tête-à-tête. Everyone is immersed in chasing the mad pursuit; no one has ‘real time’ to have real discussions. I want to break free! I want to smile even when no one is looking at me. I want to dance even if there is no music. I want to travel even when there is no defined destination. I want to enjoy ‘real’ life. I want to move away from this camouflaged race.

 

My realisations have started exploring my journey, I am eager to learn more, discover more and live more.

I wander because

In continuation to my last post –

https://thepalettedelights.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/i-wander-why/

 

My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

 

In the midst of daily chores, endless targets, perplexed musings running across my mind I try to creep in to the silence of my own being to solve my restlessness. There is something beyond my accessible terrains, where I can expand my awareness, where I can be free, where I am not lost. I feel that sometimes there is a need to travel within to know, understand and realise that indistinct vacuity of your own space; something which is hiding in you, something real, unknown but again not less than ordinary. And for that, it is required to wither away from the constant clamour of the surroundings and dig into your core. But! Can you find it? Can you extract it out? Can you liberate it? No! There lies a problem.

 

We as individuals are so absorbed in this eternal, external and incognito noise, that we are unable to stand still in our mind, heart and soul to relax and stay calm. There is so much happening around us. The influx of over flowing information is so much that a human mind is truly unable to handle it, process it and obviously implement it. We are chasing a never ending race in this maddening crowd. We are not sure about the purpose but since we don’t want to ‘miss out’ anything, no matter how relevant or irrelevant the issues are, we are sub consciously forcing ourselves to be in the game.

 

The world is bombarded with new avenues, new opportunities and new possibilities, that we are in the tendency to grab everything into us. Be it Smartphone explosions, social media platforms or rapid globalisation, everything has so much to offer, that by end of the day our brains are so drained to go beyond what is ‘visible’. Everything seems to be artificial, though technology bridges gaps between relations; we are constantly missing a ‘personal touch’. And there I am able to identify the issues what I am going through.

 

The world is moving so fast, everyone including me is mesmerised with the process and somewhere down the line we have forgotten to pause and live in the moment. It has been written many times, but what I am feeling that in this due course, I am losing myself to the world. I am so engulfed with everything around me; that I have elapsed to discover new paths for my journey. Everything looks so fake, unreal and insane. I miss those real conversations, those real relations and those real feelings.  I miss that touch! I miss that heart-to-heart tête-à-tête. Everyone is immersed in chasing the mad pursuit; no one has ‘real time’ to have real discussions. I want to break free! I want to smile even when no one is looking at me. I want to dance even if there is no music. I want to travel even when there is no defined destination. I want to enjoy ‘real’ life. I want to move away from this camouflaged race.

 

My realisations have started exploring my journey, I am eager to learn more, discover more and live more.

I Wander Why!

I am somewhere these days! My interest in this synthetic world is fleeing in void.  My inclination floats every second and my restless mind is always in search for something. I do try to focus in the present moment but my thoughts flutter from every corner to an unreachable extent. I am definitely not in this world, not even in my world. I am living somewhere. My psyche travels to different spheres aiming to experience realms of imaginary contentment. And I don’t know why?

Lost in the humdrum of activities, I wonder where my undefined explorations are leading me to. What am I looking for? Am I waiting for that flower to blossom or I just want to stay fine by enjoying the smell of fresh grass? Do I want rains or do I want to glow in the sunshine? Do I want to work myself to be attractive or whip myself in solitude?  Do I want to dance in high spirits or hide my insecurities from the maddening crowd?  What is it? What do I want? What to do? I am still figuring it out.
Nothing excites me, I am in the hunt of something new, unexplored and raw. I feel to reach those horizons where there is relatively unrefined emotions. That world, where you are far from judgments, inhibitions and apprehensions. Actually, for past many days, I feel that world is just over occupied, overwhelmed and over enthusiastic with the artificial environment. Everything looks camouflaged and is rumbled up in fabricated territory. My mind is scouting something which is natural, untouched but not less than ordinary. Something original, earthy and real.
My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

Everyone is different. Why do we judge all the time?

So, the autumn is here and London has bid a long bye to the sunshine. While we have brushed away those cottons, sunny colours and pastel patterns, it’s the time to enjoy those cold nights, short days and hot food. Commenting on the weather, one of my friends posted on FB, ‘Finally the long summer has gone! 30 degrees! Sunstrokes! Bad Tan! Arghh! Bye Summer, hope to see you pretty late next year!’ Among many comments on the post; one comment from an Indian friend caught my attention – ‘’Oh really! 30 degrees is too hot for you! You are so fragile honey! I live in India, and we are so comfortable in this tropical climate even at 45 degrees, and not just for the one day but the entire season. Get a life and don’t be so flimsy.’’

As usual, the arguments began and there was no end to the long conversions. I read them through and ignored it but after a while, when I was out and experiencing the crisp and cold air, I started thinking about the entire episode again. That friend has never been to London and he has no idea about how UK climate works. He has no clue about  winters being extremely chilly than any tropical country. He doesn’t know that experiencing frosty climate is a normal routine which is actually a big deal in his country.

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So? Basically he commented on something which is not his territory. He was being too condemnatory about people fainting over 34 degrees in UK. Honestly, was his judgement right, fair and true? When my mind reacted to this, I remembered about my co-worker gossiping about my friend (above 50) how careless, uninterrupted and extremely social she is. Being a gym fanatic, she is the fittest, slimmest and yummiest among us. Commenting on her stay free life she started blathering about her lifestyle, her attitude and her insensitive approach towards life. Why? Was my friend jealous? Was she being too judgemental without knowing the reality? Or was she actually bitter by nature?

Sadly, she didn’t know that my colleague had a miscarriage 25 years ago and failed to bare children there after! To overcome her depression, pain and misery in life, she actively started concentrating her life in other areas – socialising, fitness, travelling and so on just to forget or ignore that bad phase! When my friend confronted the fact, obviously she realised her own insolence and regretted her attitude.

So, basically, judging people without knowing what the actual situation is so unwarranted! Honestly, you and I would not have complete idea of what is happening in one’s life.

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So, end of the article now? Enough of thoughts, knowledge and understanding on the subject!

Perhaps, you would be thinking how reasonable I am about umpiring circumstances and society. But no, I have honestly learnt so much because of my own experiences. Not that I am purely non judgemental or I am not bothered about others’ lives, my thoughts changed after observing my wrong judgements and how hastily I judged people.

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In my last organisation, I met a colleague who was extremely loud, impatient and brash. Honestly, I never liked him nor I wanted to work with him. As always, I ignored him as much as I could. But then, I had to share a project with him for 6 months. While working with him, I started knowing him better, understanding his views and considering his approach. And I proudly say that I was so wrong! I was too soon to judge him based on his outward behaviour, but as I mingled with him on a regular basis, I got to know how fair-minded, outspoken and original he is. He may be a little hard to understand initially but he lives on his principles and is much more real than those people who were ‘Oh, I am so good’ masks all the time.

He has taught me so much about life. Everyone has a story, you can’t know a person by just reading a single page! Generally, we get into conclusion quickly without analysing much about the entire situation. As human beings, it is so natural to scrutinise, question and be very subjective on given times. But we forget that the circumstances are not equal for everyone. Everyone has their own state of affairs, thoughts and opinions!  Whatever it is, I think so we should give us and the other person good amount of time, space and value to come out and parade its true nature! That reality to accept the situation will be easy to comprehend, realize and understand than being so critical about it!

And then, the world and its nature will be a better place to love, smile and live.