I wander because…

In continuation to my last post –

https://thepalettedelights.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/i-wander-why/

 

My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

 

In the midst of daily chores, endless targets, perplexed musings running across my mind I try to creep in to the silence of my own being to solve my restlessness. There is something beyond my accessible terrains, where I can expand my awareness, where I can be free, where I am not lost. I feel that sometimes there is a need to travel within to know, understand and realise that indistinct vacuity of your own space; something which is hiding in you, something real, unknown but again not less than ordinary. And for that, it is required to wither away from the constant clamour of the surroundings and dig into your core. But! Can you find it? Can you extract it out? Can you liberate it? No! There lies a problem.

 

We as individuals are so absorbed in this eternal, external and incognito noise, that we are unable to stand still in our mind, heart and soul to relax and stay calm. There is so much happening around us. The influx of over flowing information is so much that a human mind is truly unable to handle it, process it and obviously implement it. We are chasing a never ending race in this maddening crowd. We are not sure about the purpose but since we don’t want to ‘miss out’ anything, no matter how relevant or irrelevant the issues are, we are sub consciously forcing ourselves to be in the game.

 

The world is bombarded with new avenues, new opportunities and new possibilities, that we are in the tendency to grab everything into us. Be it Smartphone explosions, social media platforms or rapid globalisation, everything has so much to offer, that by end of the day our brains are so drained to go beyond what is ‘visible’. Everything seems to be artificial, though technology bridges gaps between relations; we are constantly missing a ‘personal touch’. And there I am able to identify the issues what I am going through.

 

The world is moving so fast, everyone including me is mesmerised with the process and somewhere down the line we have forgotten to pause and live in the moment. It has been written many times, but what I am feeling that in this due course, I am losing myself to the world. I am so engulfed with everything around me; that I have elapsed to discover new paths for my journey. Everything looks so fake, unreal and insane. I miss those real conversations, those real relations and those real feelings.  I miss that touch! I miss that heart-to-heart tête-à-tête. Everyone is immersed in chasing the mad pursuit; no one has ‘real time’ to have real discussions. I want to break free! I want to smile even when no one is looking at me. I want to dance even if there is no music. I want to travel even when there is no defined destination. I want to enjoy ‘real’ life. I want to move away from this camouflaged race.

 

My realisations have started exploring my journey, I am eager to learn more, discover more and live more.

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I wander because

In continuation to my last post –

https://thepalettedelights.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/i-wander-why/

 

My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

 

In the midst of daily chores, endless targets, perplexed musings running across my mind I try to creep in to the silence of my own being to solve my restlessness. There is something beyond my accessible terrains, where I can expand my awareness, where I can be free, where I am not lost. I feel that sometimes there is a need to travel within to know, understand and realise that indistinct vacuity of your own space; something which is hiding in you, something real, unknown but again not less than ordinary. And for that, it is required to wither away from the constant clamour of the surroundings and dig into your core. But! Can you find it? Can you extract it out? Can you liberate it? No! There lies a problem.

 

We as individuals are so absorbed in this eternal, external and incognito noise, that we are unable to stand still in our mind, heart and soul to relax and stay calm. There is so much happening around us. The influx of over flowing information is so much that a human mind is truly unable to handle it, process it and obviously implement it. We are chasing a never ending race in this maddening crowd. We are not sure about the purpose but since we don’t want to ‘miss out’ anything, no matter how relevant or irrelevant the issues are, we are sub consciously forcing ourselves to be in the game.

 

The world is bombarded with new avenues, new opportunities and new possibilities, that we are in the tendency to grab everything into us. Be it Smartphone explosions, social media platforms or rapid globalisation, everything has so much to offer, that by end of the day our brains are so drained to go beyond what is ‘visible’. Everything seems to be artificial, though technology bridges gaps between relations; we are constantly missing a ‘personal touch’. And there I am able to identify the issues what I am going through.

 

The world is moving so fast, everyone including me is mesmerised with the process and somewhere down the line we have forgotten to pause and live in the moment. It has been written many times, but what I am feeling that in this due course, I am losing myself to the world. I am so engulfed with everything around me; that I have elapsed to discover new paths for my journey. Everything looks so fake, unreal and insane. I miss those real conversations, those real relations and those real feelings.  I miss that touch! I miss that heart-to-heart tête-à-tête. Everyone is immersed in chasing the mad pursuit; no one has ‘real time’ to have real discussions. I want to break free! I want to smile even when no one is looking at me. I want to dance even if there is no music. I want to travel even when there is no defined destination. I want to enjoy ‘real’ life. I want to move away from this camouflaged race.

 

My realisations have started exploring my journey, I am eager to learn more, discover more and live more.

I Wander Why!

I am somewhere these days! My interest in this synthetic world is fleeing in void.  My inclination floats every second and my restless mind is always in search for something. I do try to focus in the present moment but my thoughts flutter from every corner to an unreachable extent. I am definitely not in this world, not even in my world. I am living somewhere. My psyche travels to different spheres aiming to experience realms of imaginary contentment. And I don’t know why?

Lost in the humdrum of activities, I wonder where my undefined explorations are leading me to. What am I looking for? Am I waiting for that flower to blossom or I just want to stay fine by enjoying the smell of fresh grass? Do I want rains or do I want to glow in the sunshine? Do I want to work myself to be attractive or whip myself in solitude?  Do I want to dance in high spirits or hide my insecurities from the maddening crowd?  What is it? What do I want? What to do? I am still figuring it out.
Nothing excites me, I am in the hunt of something new, unexplored and raw. I feel to reach those horizons where there is relatively unrefined emotions. That world, where you are far from judgments, inhibitions and apprehensions. Actually, for past many days, I feel that world is just over occupied, overwhelmed and over enthusiastic with the artificial environment. Everything looks camouflaged and is rumbled up in fabricated territory. My mind is scouting something which is natural, untouched but not less than ordinary. Something original, earthy and real.
My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

A blank page, a few random thoughts and a break!

So I am here after many months. It’s been a long time that I have not written anything. Err! Actually it’s been a long time that I have not posted anything! There have been several episodes with my solitude when I jotted and scribbled my thoughts, my days and my life. But, nothing has taken any form, been filtered or was framed to be read! Reason? Though, writing is one of my biggest interests, today I am left with a blank page, an empty mind with slow flashes of a few random thoughts and that are it!

Somewhere, sometime or someday, I think this would have happened to you as well. Isn’t it! You dwell in your thoughts, you do or you don’t have a plan and you really want to take one step further, but you don’t know where to start or perhaps how to proceed. It could be as simple as reviving your daily mundane or a compound issue like balancing your work life balance. Basically, your mind gets jaded, or cluttered or dimmed. Suddenly, you are stuck somewhere and don’t feel any association between you and nature. Then, what do you do?

The best thing which usually works is taking a break and engaging your moods in relaxing activities. No, I am not referring to any expensive spa treat, social activities or a holiday, but simple, subtle and short breaks which add a little zing or spunk in your routine life. Talking about that, I thought of jotting down the list of trouble-free activities which gives my myriad pleasure, relaxation and calmness –

  1. Writing – Yes, this post started with writing issues and I am here again. But, believe me, like all of you writing is the best thing for me to unwind! It is a wonderful feeling to express yourself, be comfortable and just BE YOU! Oh, that is so relieving and soothing to my senses. Be it a hobby, an interest or fondness, it’s so elevating to indulge in writing at any point.
  2. Music – I am sure that this is the most common recreational activity for anyone. Many refer music to just ‘pass time’ or hobby or liking, however music works the best. Whenever my decision making process slows down, I take a short break, listen to good music, loosen up a little and hit back. It could as sweet as humming to 1970s slow songs or swaying to the latest disco hits. By the way, for me singing and dancing also comes with the package!
  3. Movies – A tired routine, a tough task or a boring day; what could be a simple way to chill out than watching movies? I love the fact that cinema has a marvellous capacity to transfer you to a different unknown world in a jiffy. It makes you travel through different emotions, humours and realms of life. I am a big fan of movies not just because it provides entertainment, but it allows you to take a back seat, slow down and enjoy the moments. Again ‘by the way’, Bollywood works for me! Beyond all that drama, frills and fancies, and ‘naach-gaana’, I enjoy this little joy in my life.
  4. Foooood – Yes, I love food! Hmm, a few from the lot would have started imagining me a heavy bod munching chips and chocolates while writing this piece. Nah! I am a budding gourmand and I love to experiment with different varieties from different cuisines. Food is a wonderful outlet to beat the stress; either it’s cooking, hunting food recipes or relishing them, I love to indulge in heavenly delicacies. A vegetarian by birth, by choice and by love, I love spending my time savouring varieties of tastes, flavours and smells.
  5. Makeup – Yes, this is the loveliest part of being woman! Lipsticks, Eye shadows, Blushes, Bronzers, Nail Paints… Ooh La La! It’s such a simple thing to pat your tempers into makeup, but it makes a big difference in the routine. An extra stroke of mascara, an added shade of lip gloss or a surplus layer of foundation will add new colours to your schedule. I am sure all the makeup junkies will agree with me.

So, give it a break, clear your mind, loosen yourself, smile and get back!

Anyway, this is my list; would be great to know what works for you?

 

 

Enjoy the experience!

I am so fond of various art forms! I simply adore the way the art brings beautiful & unexplored facets on the life platter! Every art gives a different definition, style and skill to its own distinctive system unfolding diverse layers of creativity and vision. It purely allows the artist to pour his thoughts, fancies and fantasies to shape his inspirations. Be it any form – painting, singing, dancing, drawing, and writing or just anything, art is the only channel which gives ultimate freedom to gouge out your theories, dreams and impulses at the same time. It gives immense opportunities to travel and touch your reveries, providing several expressions about what you think, feel and believe.

Power of Words

Oh! It’s such a pleasure! Such an amazing experience to get indulged in it; Practising any art is a great brain exercise in itself. It allows you to soak completely in its true nature and pushes to understand its true intensity of it! And being an ardent fan of so many art forms, I feel so fortunate to especially find myself infused in writing. I really enjoy the practice of propelling my thoughts into a piece of paper and enjoy the language of expression through words. It’s not only a hobby or passion but simply the way of life. A sparkling way to communicate my beliefs and views, a restrained route to enjoy the journey, an open window to channel my thoughts!

But many times when I try to start to pen an article; I just get stuck right in the beginning and I am unable to pave my outlooks and observations. Suddenly, a dense fog of muddles appears in front of me; just can’t figure what to write, which flow to consider, how to approach the topic? I get entangled in my thought process and consequently reverse myself to square one! Though I enjoy the writing process to its truest sense, I still get jammed in the course of action! Why? What for? How?

But then after a while, I started analysing ‘Whys’ ‘Hows’ and ‘Whichs’ and questioned the entire purpose and its meaning. Subsequently, I happened to comprehend a bigger picture, a better meaning to the process, a finer reason behind my ambiguities!  And then I here I am…

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What is the definitive perseverance to start / focus / continue a desired task? What do we actually want from the activity? What do we really wish? Oh, wish? Why do we so?

Simple! To get better things; to surpass what we already have and attain higher possessions! To write a better story of our life and to share a part of your soul to the world. We are always in a quest to desire several things in life – dream job, a cosy home, that perfect figure, a cute dress or just a fun filled relaxing vacation…the list is enormous and endless. And still, it is usually not enough for us! We always like to update our wish lists with new desires. We desire so many things, on several levels – emotionally, mentally, materialistically, financially, spiritually, and physically! Oh My Lord! So many!

And usually while we strive hard in the process, we miss to have a clear vision of how to achieve it, we somehow tend to lose that drive to get the thing done. We are ambiguous about playing that new role or travel an unexplored path, or just worry about the where-about. Instead of doing it right, we rather get tensed about the prospective outcome and are sceptical to face it.

Yes, thinking about the result! We start questioning ourselves and analyse all the ‘ifs and butts’ leading us to slowly slack our vision. Why do we do so? It is mainly because of that thirst of succeeding in every job, every activity, and every piece. Why do we thrust to be on the top and stay there forever? Or may be just the fear of falling down? Not that we stop working hard or we keep our foot down, but why don’t we enjoy life in little moments and make peace with our expedition?

Instead why don’t we focus on overcoming our fears and moving forward towards our goals without worrying about the consequences? Why don’t we try to put the outcome in the back burner, and let our efforts take care? Well! If we deeply contemplate about it, the fact is it ALL depends on us. It’s purely on how we want our lives to shape. We should understand and believe that we are the painter of our lives, choreographers of our expeditions and writers of our destiny. No one will live our lives for us. Only we can carve our living and make efforts worthwhile. And that’s what I learn from writing. That pleasure to enjoy the experience; enjoy the journey which allows you to discover new meanings, new densities, new pathways…

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Let our inhibitions be out of our way and appreciate the odyssey of our experiences. Whether it’s a simple thing like trying a new recipe, changing work patterns, starting a new hobby or just starting a new blog like me! Nothing should ever stop us! Trial and error is an important part of the process. So bring it on! Bring what you want to the platter! A different taste, a different spice and a little drama!

Relish and enjoy the experience!