I wander because…

In continuation to my last post –

https://thepalettedelights.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/i-wander-why/

 

My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

 

In the midst of daily chores, endless targets, perplexed musings running across my mind I try to creep in to the silence of my own being to solve my restlessness. There is something beyond my accessible terrains, where I can expand my awareness, where I can be free, where I am not lost. I feel that sometimes there is a need to travel within to know, understand and realise that indistinct vacuity of your own space; something which is hiding in you, something real, unknown but again not less than ordinary. And for that, it is required to wither away from the constant clamour of the surroundings and dig into your core. But! Can you find it? Can you extract it out? Can you liberate it? No! There lies a problem.

 

We as individuals are so absorbed in this eternal, external and incognito noise, that we are unable to stand still in our mind, heart and soul to relax and stay calm. There is so much happening around us. The influx of over flowing information is so much that a human mind is truly unable to handle it, process it and obviously implement it. We are chasing a never ending race in this maddening crowd. We are not sure about the purpose but since we don’t want to ‘miss out’ anything, no matter how relevant or irrelevant the issues are, we are sub consciously forcing ourselves to be in the game.

 

The world is bombarded with new avenues, new opportunities and new possibilities, that we are in the tendency to grab everything into us. Be it Smartphone explosions, social media platforms or rapid globalisation, everything has so much to offer, that by end of the day our brains are so drained to go beyond what is ‘visible’. Everything seems to be artificial, though technology bridges gaps between relations; we are constantly missing a ‘personal touch’. And there I am able to identify the issues what I am going through.

 

The world is moving so fast, everyone including me is mesmerised with the process and somewhere down the line we have forgotten to pause and live in the moment. It has been written many times, but what I am feeling that in this due course, I am losing myself to the world. I am so engulfed with everything around me; that I have elapsed to discover new paths for my journey. Everything looks so fake, unreal and insane. I miss those real conversations, those real relations and those real feelings.  I miss that touch! I miss that heart-to-heart tête-à-tête. Everyone is immersed in chasing the mad pursuit; no one has ‘real time’ to have real discussions. I want to break free! I want to smile even when no one is looking at me. I want to dance even if there is no music. I want to travel even when there is no defined destination. I want to enjoy ‘real’ life. I want to move away from this camouflaged race.

 

My realisations have started exploring my journey, I am eager to learn more, discover more and live more.

I wander because

In continuation to my last post –

https://thepalettedelights.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/i-wander-why/

 

My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

 

In the midst of daily chores, endless targets, perplexed musings running across my mind I try to creep in to the silence of my own being to solve my restlessness. There is something beyond my accessible terrains, where I can expand my awareness, where I can be free, where I am not lost. I feel that sometimes there is a need to travel within to know, understand and realise that indistinct vacuity of your own space; something which is hiding in you, something real, unknown but again not less than ordinary. And for that, it is required to wither away from the constant clamour of the surroundings and dig into your core. But! Can you find it? Can you extract it out? Can you liberate it? No! There lies a problem.

 

We as individuals are so absorbed in this eternal, external and incognito noise, that we are unable to stand still in our mind, heart and soul to relax and stay calm. There is so much happening around us. The influx of over flowing information is so much that a human mind is truly unable to handle it, process it and obviously implement it. We are chasing a never ending race in this maddening crowd. We are not sure about the purpose but since we don’t want to ‘miss out’ anything, no matter how relevant or irrelevant the issues are, we are sub consciously forcing ourselves to be in the game.

 

The world is bombarded with new avenues, new opportunities and new possibilities, that we are in the tendency to grab everything into us. Be it Smartphone explosions, social media platforms or rapid globalisation, everything has so much to offer, that by end of the day our brains are so drained to go beyond what is ‘visible’. Everything seems to be artificial, though technology bridges gaps between relations; we are constantly missing a ‘personal touch’. And there I am able to identify the issues what I am going through.

 

The world is moving so fast, everyone including me is mesmerised with the process and somewhere down the line we have forgotten to pause and live in the moment. It has been written many times, but what I am feeling that in this due course, I am losing myself to the world. I am so engulfed with everything around me; that I have elapsed to discover new paths for my journey. Everything looks so fake, unreal and insane. I miss those real conversations, those real relations and those real feelings.  I miss that touch! I miss that heart-to-heart tête-à-tête. Everyone is immersed in chasing the mad pursuit; no one has ‘real time’ to have real discussions. I want to break free! I want to smile even when no one is looking at me. I want to dance even if there is no music. I want to travel even when there is no defined destination. I want to enjoy ‘real’ life. I want to move away from this camouflaged race.

 

My realisations have started exploring my journey, I am eager to learn more, discover more and live more.

I Wander Why!

I am somewhere these days! My interest in this synthetic world is fleeing in void.  My inclination floats every second and my restless mind is always in search for something. I do try to focus in the present moment but my thoughts flutter from every corner to an unreachable extent. I am definitely not in this world, not even in my world. I am living somewhere. My psyche travels to different spheres aiming to experience realms of imaginary contentment. And I don’t know why?

Lost in the humdrum of activities, I wonder where my undefined explorations are leading me to. What am I looking for? Am I waiting for that flower to blossom or I just want to stay fine by enjoying the smell of fresh grass? Do I want rains or do I want to glow in the sunshine? Do I want to work myself to be attractive or whip myself in solitude?  Do I want to dance in high spirits or hide my insecurities from the maddening crowd?  What is it? What do I want? What to do? I am still figuring it out.
Nothing excites me, I am in the hunt of something new, unexplored and raw. I feel to reach those horizons where there is relatively unrefined emotions. That world, where you are far from judgments, inhibitions and apprehensions. Actually, for past many days, I feel that world is just over occupied, overwhelmed and over enthusiastic with the artificial environment. Everything looks camouflaged and is rumbled up in fabricated territory. My mind is scouting something which is natural, untouched but not less than ordinary. Something original, earthy and real.
My explorations have started and in the course of my journey, I am eager solve those blocks which are disturbing my views to know my own conflicts, ideas and unknown visions…
The Odyssey is on… I am waiting to tour those routes… And waiting to pen those roads…

Oh Spring! Thank you for being here

…And summer is soon approaching clearing the chilly waves and frosty nights paving the way to long days and brighter dawns. Days are turning longer and flowers are so delighted to blossom back in the courtyard. Snow has completely melted and all the greenery sprawled in the region hiding beneath the winter is gradually gliding its path and smiling back to us. It’s the time to welcome greens and to admire warm air invading our spaces. What a pleasure to relish the softness of the weather again! Elated with the pleasant waves drawing me towards it, I open my window just to adore the beauty of this wonderful springtime.

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And the first expression – ‘Wow’!  What a lovely sight! The sun is shining bright on me and chirpy birds are merrily swinging high in the sky. While honey bees are too busy romancing the florets, the sun-drenched breeze remains active spreading the fresh fragrance of the weather. I open up all the curtains inviting the sunshine in to my room revitalizing the quiet start of my day. Switching on a soft musical piece, I continue my daily chores enjoying the vivid flavour of this season. The smooth rays flashing in my apartment are calling me to enjoy the presence of the most attractive time of my existence here. And then I am here in my balcony to soak myself in the luminous sunbeams and pleasant weather.

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Relaxing in my comfy chair, I smell the freshness and warmth of this wonderful time of the year. Pleased to the utmost spell of the climate, I am experiencing the freshness of the green bushes, gentle winds and sweet sounds of the wind.  It’s such a beautiful time I am having right now! I am witnessing a spark in the milieu which is so thrilled with this new change within. The trees have started growing taller; they are sprouting fresh leaves again. Leaves are cheerfully dancing on the tunes of sunlit waves and umpteen colourful buds blooming is such an astonishing visual delight.  I was happy savouring my senses by admiring the pleasantness of their surroundings after a long and cold winter.

The aesthetic appeal of the entire experience filled me with loads of smiles and hearty amusement of the real nature. Oh, I just love spring! I am purely awestruck with its true essence. Though spring was chasing the winter on a slow pace, it has arrived and the amount of gratification it has brought to the senses is splendid! After the melancholy of the winter, my life smiled at me conveying a very small but imperative thing the change is just as natural as the Mother Nature! The honeyed time in the first days of spring not only made me soaked in the true avatar but made me realise that change is inevitable and it comes in many forms in our lives. Though not as pleasant as spring always, it unfolds a new meaning, new opportunities and new hope.

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Life changes are like leaves on a tree. The leaves have their own colour, expression and identity according to the seasons. It’s better to surrender to change as we do to all the seasons. Many times, the only way to improve our lives is to first accept and deal with positivity. Accepting changes means accepting yourself! And eventually every change brings its own spring, its own enthusiasm and its new impact on our future.

Thank you My Spring! Thank you My Small Expedition towards the Mother Nature! You brought me a little more close to the real essence of my being…Thinking of the pretty moments lived, I am moving back to my room beautifying the entire experience to myself.